No Nicotine
06:50 AM
Hello. Right now I'm feeling a bit good, for some reason, because I've been out of nicotine for the past 10 hours or so I think, and I'm craving it badly. However I feel hyper and manic in a way. I feel at ease and excited at the some time.
Last night I really wanted to read more from Tolstoy's book, "The Death of Ivan Ilych" but I ended up writing and organizing some other things on how one ought to conduct himself, and yesterday, it was about how to conduct oneself when one is praised.
Met. Gregory (Postnikov) of St. Petersburg puts it in a very nice and straightforward manner and just says that one ought to pay a lot of attention to when they're being praised. because at that point they could be getting attacked, whether spiritually, or getting prepared to be attacked and manipulated by someone else.
"Try to look with distrust on the praise given you & if the praise is continued for a long time, then it is best to interrupt the conversation politely and turn it to another topic."
"What has thou didst not receive? Now if thou didst receive it, why dost thou glory, as if thou hadst not received it?" (1Cor 4:7)
I have to endure the withdrawal effects till i get my nicotine gum delivered, and till then, God have mercy on my miserable soul.
Vivere militare est. (To live is to fight) - Lucius Seneca
I feel like I'm tweakin' and my body feels weird. Sleepy but awake ig. Lord have mercy amen.